Monday, January 31, 2011

159th. Stroke

Here is a nice big gray-green stroke to dominate the canvas with strength and confidence.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

158th. Stroke

Here is some turquoise dominating the page.

157th. Stroke

Today is a nice big Orange stroke for you. I hope you like it. This one is a thin paint that shows through.

Friday, January 28, 2011

156th. Stroke

This is a Phthalo Green. I had a long day of appointments and I'm wiped out. I hope you like the color. If not just think of it as a necessary step towards the big picture.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

153rd Stroke

Gray is the feeling of my day. I hope a good nights sleep makes it go away.

Monday, January 24, 2011

152nd. Stroke

Once in a while the black shows up but it can't stop all the colors around it. We can't defeat something unless we can acknowledge it's existence.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Friday, January 21, 2011

150th. Stroke

Blue is the color. It is not because I'm feeling down. I actually love the color and it made me happy today to see the sunny blue sky.

149th Stroke

Green is today's color. I think for me it represents new life and hope. I just need to remember this through out my days.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Sunday, January 16, 2011

147th. Stroke

Here is a nice dark stroke of green. Every day when I wake up my nice green plants are there to greet me. So this is dedicated to them.

Saturday, January 15, 2011


Thank you for stopping by to see my 146th. stroke. I like it allot and hope you do also. I've had some confusion lately in my life and this painting has been here as a place to check in. I lived for over a year in a psychiatric community. I have been diagnosed w/bipolar, PTSD, attention disorder and borderline personality disorder. I have also been in the hospital three times in just over a year. Once because they thought I was suicidal, once because they stopped my Depokote all at once from 2500mg. to 0mg. As you can imagine I was losing reality a bit. So the cops showed up three days after when I was scared of everything and so I tried to outrun them. One of them tackled me and then rammed me off the car a few times before he put me in it. As you can imagine my paranoid thoughts are seeming more real by the minute. I sat there until the ambulance came. I stayed for two weeks. I was scared of the hospital because I had a bad experience at the last one and I was there over three months. This new one was completely different. Then after two more months back at the community they planned a med change so they decided it would be smoother in the hospital. After two weeks of things going smoothly at the hospital some of the people from where I lived came in for a meeting and told me I wasn't welcome back. So I'm in and out of thoughts about a place that exists to help people unless they really need help. That's all I needed. Now I guess I was to fucked up or I didn't have enough money. I don't know how the Dr. helps 35 people by talking to them 15min. every other week. Anyway I hope you like the stroke. -Josh

145th. Stroke

I thought about the color for a while. I had what one might call painters block. So I asked the painting. I stood there waiting for a sign. All the sudden it dawned on me. A darker version of an existing color would look great. I personally think it was a success. -Josh

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

142nd. Stroke

Today's color is red oxide. I thought it would look cool w/the other reds and cutting through the dark a little bit.