159th. Stroke

Here is a nice big gray-green stroke to dominate the canvas with strength and confidence.

158th. Stroke

Here is some turquoise dominating the page.

157th. Stroke

Today is a nice big Orange stroke for you. I hope you like it. This one is a thin paint that shows through.

156th. Stroke

This is a Phthalo Green. I had a long day of appointments and I'm wiped out. I hope you like the color. If not just think of it as a necessary step towards the big picture.

155th. Stroke

A nice white. A clean slate. We could all use one of those once in awhile.

154th. Stroke

Nice bright red after a couple days of black and gray.

153rd Stroke

Gray is the feeling of my day. I hope a good nights sleep makes it go away.

152nd. Stroke

Once in a while the black shows up but it can't stop all the colors around it. We can't defeat something unless we can acknowledge it's existence.

151st. Stroke

Magenta

circle. No meaning. I just thought it would look good.

150th. Stroke

Blue is the color. It is not because I'm feeling down. I actually love the color and it made me happy today to see the sunny blue sky.

149th Stroke

Green is today's color. I think for me it represents new life and hope. I just need to remember this through out my days.

148th. Stroke

Not much to say today. I hope you like the yellow oxide.

147th. Stroke

Here is a nice dark stroke of green. Every day when I wake up my nice green plants are there to greet me. So this is dedicated to them.

146th.Stroke

Thank you for stopping by to see my 146th. stroke. I like it allot and hope you do also. I've had some confusion lately in my life and this painting has been here as a place to check in. I lived for over a year in a psychiatric community. I have been diagnosed w/bipolar, PTSD, attention disorder and borderline personality disorder. I have also been in the hospital three times in just over a year. Once because they thought I was suicidal, once because they stopped my Depokote all at once from 2500mg. to 0mg. As you can imagine I was losing reality a bit. So the cops showed up three days after when I was scared of everything and so I tried to outrun them. One of them tackled me and then rammed me off the car a few times before he put me in it. As you can imagine my paranoid thoughts are seeming more real by the minute. I sat there until the ambulance came. I stayed for two weeks. I was scared of the hospital because I had a bad experience at the last one and I was there over three months. This new one was completely different. Then after two more months back at the community they planned a med change so they decided it would be smoother in the hospital. After two weeks of things going smoothly at the hospital some of the people from where I lived came in for a meeting and told me I wasn't welcome back. So I'm in and out of thoughts about a place that exists to help people unless they really need help. That's all I needed. Now I guess I was to fucked up or I didn't have enough money. I don't know how the Dr. helps 35 people by talking to them 15min. every other week. Anyway I hope you like the stroke. -Josh

145th. Stroke

I thought about the color for a while. I had what one might call painters block. So I asked the painting. I stood there waiting for a sign. All the sudden it dawned on me. A darker version of an existing color would look great. I personally think it was a success. -Josh

144th. Stroke

I guess it's the initials today.

143rd. Stroke

Today I made myself a nice aqua blue J. I hope you like it.

142nd. Stroke

Today's color is red oxide. I thought it would look cool w/the other reds and cutting through the dark a little bit.